Baby Baby Baby

I have been so torn as to how to have this baby. Now I know many people do not even get an "option" when it comes to delivery but at this point I do. I say at this point I do because when it is all said and done, the Dr's really decide for you when everything is going down. Ryland was an unscheduled c-section because when he decided to join us at 32 weeks he was seriously breached so they took him out. No harm, no foul...I cannot complain, recovery was very simple and there were no complications. So this time around, it was assumed by my Dr that I would be having a repeat C-section since most women do. I on the other hand, started doing research and I was a great candidate to try for a V-BAC (Vaginal Birth After Ceserian). So I told my Dr I would like to just see how things pan out and not plan for one or the other. Now that I am over due...there is a part of me that is kicking myself because Matt and I could have met London as early as April 23rd, almost two weeks ago!!! But there is the other part of me that is so excited to see what other women experience. The uncertainty and not knowing when or where it is all going to start. It is hard to plan to be unplanned...there is something that pulls me to the familiar and "safe." I thought I would write about this now because I have started having contractions this morning and am already excited that I have experienced something new. They hurt and make life really uncomfortable right now but it is still so exciting to not know what is going to happen next. So I get excited and then I get scared but I have already begun this new birthing journey so we will see what pans out in the next few hours or days!!!!