My Mission (missio vita)

Below is something I wrote about 6 years ago with my mentor and friend, Ken Curry. Ken and I have a pretty incredible relationship and we gave and give each other freedom to speak truth into each others lives. We actually pursued living the statement below for sometime as Adrienne and I lived in Denver. As I have weeped, prayed, cried out to my Lord the last few weeks for our dear friends CJ and Renee, I have realized, that I have been lacking something in my life for some time. Community.

"Imagine a gathering of sojourning and rescued people on a quest to deepen their love of God and others. They are a family centered on one person, Jesus Christ. They are captivated by the idea that the story is not about them, but all about Jesus. His story has interrupted their lives and they cannot escape His deep love and His hold on their hearts. They are comforters, and forgivers, sowers and reapers, radicals and resolute doing small and extravagant things with great love. They embrace Christ’s mission to live among, to listen to, to love, and to fight for the hearts of people in this turbulent world. They are willing to risk life itself for the freedom of others, so they enter the fray linking arms with anyone who tells the story of Jesus.”

All I Can Say

Lord I'm tired
So tired from walking
And Lord I'm so alone
And Lord the dark
Is creeping in
Creeping up
To swallow me
I think I'll stop
Rest here a while

And this is all that I can say right now
And this is all that I can give

And didn't You see me cry'n?
And didn't You hear me call Your name?
Wasn't it You I gave my heart to?
I wish You'd remember
Where you sat it down

And this is all that I can say right now
And this is all that I can give

I didn't notice You were standing here
I didn't know that
That was You holding me
I didn't notice You were cry'n too
I didn't know that
That was You washing my feet

And this is all that I can say right now
And this is all that I can give

I think this sums up Matt and I's day today and actually many people who we know and love are probably having this kind of day. Tonight at 6:30 we will go cry and grieve for the Bergmens' and rejoice and praise God that Titus is with Him.... and that is all that I can say right now

Rylands Dedication

Learning To Trust

"All I have seen teaches me to trust the creator for all I have not seen."

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

Show me the Belly!!!

Thank you to my wonderful friend Renee' who took these amazing photos the day after almost having her first baby...what a trooper. They were well worth the wait!!!

Baby Shower

Last weekend I had the most AMAZING baby shower. Now, people had told me that opening presents for a little girl would be way better than for a little boy and I just didnt believe them! But oh were they right!!! All the pink was amazing. I had so many friends stop by and my close friends and family that threw it...they did such an amazing job! I felt very special that day. And it was nice to do it "the right way" this time...baby shower and then deliver the baby :-)

The Belly bump at 30 weeks


Opening presents


The best part of the shower...my mom gave me a box of baby clothes that she had saved that were mine when i was oh so little...my face does not do the picture justice, I LOVE THE CLOTHES and cannot wait for my little girl to wear them :-)

Pregnancy Again

The following is a post that I had on my original blog. It was posted Thursday, August 16, 2007 and Ryland was born August 21st.....only five days later, hard to believe.
This pregnancy has been so different from the get-go. Morning sickness, smaller weight gain, less headaches, no swelling at this point. I am 29 weeks and really trying to not get nervous. I pray about this everyday and it continues to be so hard to let go. I am excited for what the next few weeks bring and hopefully see what going 40 weeks is like :-)



(POST FROM AUGUST 16, 2007 - ENJOY!)

Being pregnant is scary. It's funny that you never think about that when you are trying to get pregnant. I have been to the hospital twice this week. I went in Tuesday at 1am because of a horrible headache. They tell you that if anything is above and beyond normal, call the doctor. So while I was there, the headache was no big deal but the contractions I was having were. Unfortunately, I could not feel the contractions. Tuesday, I decided to go to work and got a call from my doctor and was told to go back to the hospital so they could monitor the contractions that I was not feeling. Things seem ok and they are a little worried about my blood pressure and hypertension problems. Its just scary that this was all happening and I didnt even know it and would not have known it had it not been for the very unimportant headache I was having.
Ultimately, the hard part is not being in control. I have very little control on what is happening inside me. I can control what I eat, working out, taking it easy, taking vitamins and that's about it! Everything else, God is doing inside of me. There is nothing I can do beyond that. I am seeing the doctor again today and I am a little worried about bed rest. It is hard to not stress when all I do is listen to people's stressors. So we'll see :-)